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im worser in home now,listening to sade now,as im listening and typing,im thinking of the ways to get out of this house,not because of hate but i feel trapped here,i feel happy when im not with my family. this feels toxic and i feel like im being manipulated by devil.im still not connected with god. im not answering to questions my parents asking and its absolutely absurd,i will admit it. as i was repeating the same mistake,my father asked me to get ouf of this house if i dont like staying here,so for some time im thinking of the ways to get out of this house and not to depend on their money,the thought of opening up or just talking irritating me. i really dont know why, i feel like the time my parents has is borrowed.i feel like something big is going to happen,it could be death or worser. i love my family and yes im selfish at some aspects. but i always chose to stand by my family, i always try to say the safest and less info abt my family when ppl ask abt them. Family is Everyt...